Today I am pondering my devil ego, my big bad ego that keeps me safe, keeps me warm inside and keeps me from dealing with the hard stuff. I call this bad ego, my “I can’t be arsed” ego. And oh boy does this ego bring me trouble – it pours me wine, brings me yummy food to eat off the couch and it allows me to do really naughty things like Netflix marathons – gosh it’s an ego hard not to love!
But the problem with this devil ego of mine, is that it’s directly responsible for holding me back, directly responsible for bringing on guilt and directly responsible for making me feel anxious and shame. It prevents me from achieving my goals, and it totally brings on my fears that I am not good enough. It dishes me a big plate of who gives a shit, and it completely serves me nothing, nothing at all. So whilst this “I can’t be arsed” ego may serve a really crap purpose, it’s not the ego I want to hang out with, nor is it the ego I want to sustain.
The ego I want to hang out with is the “Paulina Po” ego, the one that screams out I am worthy, I am enough and I am totally loveable. This ego fires off my front brain, the place of happiness, gratitude, positivity, optimism and compassion. It opens my world of possibility and enables me to thrive in anything I choose to do. It brings me back to my child like behaviours, where I am curious, take risks, spontaneous, fun, warm, playful, loving and resilient.
So I am pondering, what do I need to do to hang out with my “Paulina Po” ego? Take action by being accountable and responsible for my decisions is a good start. Rid my safe problems and those actions that keep the couch warm. I need to switch on my front brain because the more I can experience gratitude and happiness, the less I will experience anxiety. I need to be more spontaneous, curious and more playful – I need to be more of me when I was a child and had no fears of what others thought. My family called me Paulina Po (and still do). This little character was really powerful and she thrived in a world where her cheeky big smile guided her way. Paulina Po is who I need to reclaim because she brings me a healthy self esteem. The more my needs are met, the more I speak my emotional truth, and the more I manage my boundaries, then the more I will live a life where I am consciously believing I am enough, I am loved and I am worthy – I am Paulina Po.
So what’s your ponder? Are you procrastinator, are your fears and anxiety holding you back, are you playing a safe game in life and not really getting anywhere? If you are reading this, then I believe your unconscious mind is now here and can hear what I am saying. This means you are now ready to dump the procrastinator in you and live a life like no-one is watching. And since this is the case, then you should take action and click the below for a free consultation today.
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